last surgery done!

I should be a lot happier that the last surgery is done but I'm just not quite ready to celebrate. I don't think I've ever been this stressed. Post surgery without Damon has been really hard for me. Relying on other people to mother my child is really hard for me. I feel like we are a burden to them although no one feels that way. My mom has been the main caretaker for the past two weeks; however, she left for a much deserved cruise last Saturday and my grandma has been taking care of him. I still have two more weeks before I'm supposed to carry him; when I cheat and do it, I have really bad nerve pain. My grandpa was real with me and told me that her back has been hurting. She has had a lot of back pain in the past. So Damon is on his way. Because he works in Utah he's missed a lot of work, we didn't want him to miss any more but he has to now. Its just really stressful for me. He has me make the call if he should come or not so I just feel a lot of guilt for making him miss work. I'm in pain too so I think its just physically and emotionally a hard time for me. I'm excited for it to all be over.

6.24.18