distractions

I get distracted, a lot. Usually, its by things like household chores, or my mind wandering about when I will shower, cook dinner, or exercise. Lately, its been different. Its been about family. A couple weeks back we discovered my cousin had cancer. Cancer isn't rare in our family but she's 27 years old. We thought it was the best case scenario but then the news just kept getting worse. Surgery didn't go well and they discovered things we weren't ready to hear.

Today, I got a call from my mom saying that my brother's apartment had burned down. My brother is on a church mission. He's giving up two years of his life to serve the Lord. His journals and belongings were destroyed. 

This news is hard to hear as well. We have two missionaries out right now in our family. My brother and cousin. His sister is the cousin with cancer. In the church you often hear how your family will be protected and blessed as you have someone from your family serving a mission. With all this bad news, my faith is a little shaken on that statement. 

My husband is also sick with the flu or some sort of virus so I have single mom duty with Crew. I feel bad because my mind is no where near home. Its with my sick cousin. Its thinking about my brother and how hard of a time he is having right now. His home is gone. His things are gone. I want to be the absolute best mom I can be, every single day. I just don't know how to handle this all I guess. 

This must be what people mean when they say they need the Lord to carry their burdens.

Saying that out loud sounds dumb to me. I'm not even the one going through the trials. Its my cousin and my brother. Not me! My heart just hearts for them so badly. I love them both so much that it pains me that they have to go through this. It makes me wish it happened to me instead.

Sometimes life just isn't fair.

05.17.17

milestones

I don't get too into if Crew is doing the right things at the right time. I figure I'll try my best to teach him to roll over, sit up, crawl etc. and the rest is up to him. It doesn't worry me if he doesn't know how to do things that other babies his age already do. It makes him unique! For example, Crew is 7 months old next week and he can't roll over from his back to his tummy. He is a strong baby but he just hasn't done it yet. It actually is a blessing because he LOVES to be swaddled, it puts him right to sleep. If he could roll over from his back to his tummy, we really couldn't be swaddling him. 

Yesterday, May 12, he started actually accepting solid foods! I was such a proud momma. We've been trying solids for about 3 weeks and he has not been into it at all. He would just shut his mouth super tight so we couldn't get the spoon in there. We tried bananas, carrots, avocado, oatmeal, and baby oatmeal. It was actually really cute. The only thing he actually seemed to like one day was peanut butter.

Then yesterday, for some reason, he saw that spoon and opened his mouth so wide. I thought oh he will stop doing that once he realizes its adult food. Nope! He kept eating. Each bite he was oddly excited to eat. That day he enjoyed carrots (actual carrots, not pureed), a strawberry (he just sucked on it a ton), peanut butter, and a ton of baby oatmeal cereal before bed. It was the cutest thing. Just the day before that he refused to eat. I love him. 

He can sit up for quite a while now! May 1st was the first time we realized he could sit up on his own for a couple seconds. Now he can go a long while. It's so much fun seeing how much our little baby can learn in just a couple weeks!

Other cute things: he randomly fell asleep after waking up pretty early playing with toys. He also has kind of turned into a cuddler when he wakes up. Im a little obsessed with it. Each morning he goes in his little jumper and LOVES to jump to music. Its so much fun.


I can't believe he will be 7 months old next week. 

05.13.17