When I got married I knew I would have to go wherever my husband got a job. I was willing to go with him, but ultimately, I of course wanted to be near my family. We lucked out and he did well working for my dad. He is still doing well, but has been presented with some different opportunities that give him a lot more flexibility and even a little increase in pay. The hard part is that some of these great offers are located in Utah.
I never ever ever ever ever thought I would live in Utah. Growing up I always thought that "bad" Mormons would make my children want to be bad (I've become less naive since then). I never didn't like it, I just had never envisioned myself living there.
When Damon first brought the idea up to me I felt really fine about possibly moving to Utah, maybe even a little bit excited. It was so weird. He actually brought it up to me a couple months ago and I was like NO WAY. However, this time was different. I didn't feel scared about the idea at all. I have a lot of family and a lot of friends there right now. I'll also most likely have both my brothers there and my cousin who I'm really close with. Another plus, is that the homes there are A LOT less expensive.
I had only thought about the good. But of course the thought of moving there didn't leave my mind. I spent time with my family a little bit then realized how hard it would be to leave them. I'm not attached to Everett (at all), and I'm honestly not attached to how rainy and gloomy it can be here, but I'm SO very attached to my parents and my grandparents.
Damon hasn't even received a job offer to any places in Utah yet, but it just feels inevitable. I feel like I had these initial non-scared kind of good feelings for a reason but I guess we really never know. Maybe I just need to be open to it now because it may happen later? Or maybe it's the Lord just testing me. I'm not sure.
Right now all I can do is wait and see what Damons offered, make a decision, and pray to know if we should do it. It's hard to look at the big picture when thinking about leaving my parents and grandparents but thankfully these jobs actually offer unlimited paid time off. I just need to follow the Lord's plan for me and it will make me the happiest.
01.15.18
